top of page

An Old Nazi Remembers


Image by Joseph Cosby | The Old Guard

The Beautiful Game

At Bergen-Belsen, 1943,

Our soldiers used the babies

For soccer balls. We cuffed the mothers

To posts and invited them to watch.


When a baby stopped screaming, a

Final kick to the head, and that was that.

Then a guard would toss in a fresh one.


Oh, I’m aware that the nickname

Came along after the Holocaust.

The Beautiful Game.


The Beautiful Game.

Having lived those days,

I could never call it that.


Sausages

On that long-ago morning my frau and I craved sausages.

She wanted link sausages. I wanted patties.

So, we heated a 12-inch cast iron skillet

And filled it with sausages.


Linked, chewy, phallic sausages for her.

Round, comforting patties for me.

Hints of maple sugar; hints of sage.

Sausages sausages sausages.


We kept eye contact as we

Ate our… sausages.

Thinking, how happy we are!

As we ate our… sausages.


Not for one moment did we consider

The piglet, pulling on its Mother’s teat,

Just an innocent little nuzzler.

It’s destiny? To become sausages.


Not thinking of the porcine bonds

Being formed in rural Schleswig-Holstein.

The look, the lust, the love.


Not for a moment, thinking of

The blind trip to the factory

Where sentient beings,

Having no say in the matter,

Would become… sausages.


February 13, 1945

We knew this night would come.

We did not know the precise date, but

Its coming was a certainty,

Because the war was lost.


And that is why we had kept her intact.

We secured her accommodations

In the finest suite in a guarded hotel.

Catered meals; anything she wanted.


We could not leave the City.

Dresden was ours to protect.

We would defend the City or die.

That we would die was a certainty.


How do you live when you know…

You know, without doubt, that

You will be dead within the month.

How do you carry on?


You will never see your wife again.

Your school sweetheart that you married.

The children that she gave you.

The children that you love.


We would dine with her, one by one.

Dressed in our finest uniforms.

Our medals polished.

Our Teutonic manners correct.


When I visited, we played

Her little gramophone,

Always Beethoven.

Often the Pastorale Symphony.


On another night, another Officer

Might ask her to amuse him with cards.

Or, one might request that she read poetry.

A few simply drank wine while admiring her beauty.


Men at war always capture women.

They make necessary use of these women.

The Japanese had their stables of

Chinese comfort women.


We had our women too.

Nubile, long-haired Jewish girls

Whose dark beauty far surpassed

That of our blond frauleins.


Our personal stable of mares,

To peruse, to use, to abuse, and

When we grew bored with them,

To be shipped to the camps.


They rode in cattle cars,

Those prim little Daughters of Abraham.

Once they were music students,

Readers and writers of poetry.


Now they were the cast aside whores of

The Master Race — the Third Reich.

No doubt most of them

Found their fates in the furnaces,

And welcomed the purifying fire.


But I was speaking of her.

The protected one.

The untouched, off-limits one.

The greatest beauty of them all.


Why can I make such a statement?

We had voted, you see.

When we sanitized the Dresden Ghetto,

We voted. She was unanimous.


I had assured her that when Dresden

Was safe for Jews to wander, she

Would be set free. We Officers had agreed

That he who molested her would die.


Then February 13, 1945, happened.

This was the night those who

Called themselves the Allies

Firebombed Dresden.


They turned our beautiful City,

The Florence on the Elbe,

Into a mass of molten steel

And ashes and bones and guts.


It was our night to die,

And we knew it.

The hundreds of air raid sirens

Ruptured our poor eardrums.


We, the Senior Officers,

Commanded the Junior Officers:

Hold your positions! Do your duty!

Defend our City! Save Dresden!


Then we repaired to her suite.

I myself was given the honor

Of gently rapping on her door.

And so I rapped, but gently.


When she opened the door,

Her countenance told me that

She was pleased to see me.

But then she saw the rest of us.


In an instant, she comprehended

Her final mission in this war;

For everyone in every war

Has a final mission.


And her mission in this war,

As even a fool could instantly grasp,

Was to distract us through the night,

While beyond these walls, our Dresden died.


Of all our little party, only I survive

To reminisce about that night.

When I think of her, I like to think that

She turned her mind to both the music

And the deafness of Beethoven.

Comentários

Avaliado com 0 de 5 estrelas.
Ainda sem avaliações

Adicione uma avaliação
bottom of page